I’m still in the beginning stages of this journey back to health. It hasn’t even been a full month. Yet, I’m seeing successes in so many areas. Still, I restart every single day and some days are just challenging.
That’s when I turn to what my mother so lovingly taught and always lives out. My mother, who will likely outlive us all, has nearly always eaten for the health of her body. She thrives on fresh food, especially vegetables with a few fruits here and there, very little red meat, and realistic portions. Most of all, while she will enjoy the occasional celebratory meal out, she regularly eats for the health of her body, not for hedonistic pleasure or comfort. This is an example to which I aspire. So how do I get from wanting “treats” to eating what I truly need for the health of my body?
First, I’m surrounding myself with good things. That is, of course, mostly due to the help of my daughter Rachel who does the majority of the main meal planning and shopping. Still, I’ve learned not to “feel sorry for myself” which often led me to stop to get something to eat that is not on plan or to eat more than what is called for.
Next, I’m reminded of something from my daughter Rebecca’s all-time favorite movie “fish are friends, not food.” For me this translates to “food is fuel, not just fun.” I’m learning to fuel my body not to provide treats for it. How? I’m a post-it note addict. I have post-it notes all around my computer space at work. This week I developed a new one that is posted where I will see it either directly or peripherally all day long:
Rachel, with whom I shared this, had more improvements on the concept:
Did I mention, she knows me really well? Then she shared this thought:
[At the risk of her seeing this I will share, yes, she is very insightful and, no, I truly don’t know where she gets this from – she tends to blame my father and mother. I highly recommend Rachel’s blog for more of the wit and wisdom she shares: http://schnab.blogspot.com/]
All of this was followed closely by one of the devotions I read this week. The bible verse was:
I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.
Phil. 4:11 NIVUK
So just as we often seek safety and comfort first from our families and then, unfortunately often from the foods we eat, I found myself seeking comfort in much the same way. This has been a bit of a heart realization. Heart, because my head already knew it before I was able to feel and understand it. So now I work at finding comfort in my faith, in scripture, and prayer, and fellowship. The prayer at the end of that devotion is one I plan on praying frequently:
Dear Lord, I long to experience the contentment Paul knew. I know it is a process that must be learned. Teach me to embrace my circumstances, knowing it is You alone who gives me the strength to accept where You have me right now. Quiet my heart and help me to trust in Your plans for me. In Jesus’ name, amen.
Progress Report: 10.2 pounds lost – I broke my first “decade”!
Other news: My doctor has suggested I participate in a new drug study for people with Ankylosing Spondylitis (that’s a major cause of the joint issues along with being far too heavy for far too long). I’ve read and signed all the paperwork and await my first appointment. I will receive the medication at the currently approved amount and then either receive an additional dose or a placebo. On the “really blessed” side of this – free medication for 1 year and reducing my medications for this condition from 4 to 1. Woohoo!!
Please continue to pray!
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